Friday, July 24, 2009

and we watch the world go by

Finally, an update.

Well, i guess this is worth updating about :D met Daniel at city hall at 3pm. been so long since we headed to somewhere else besides tampines and pasir ris. but today made all those past few months of tampines and pasir ris so worth it. HAHA. walked around then went to suntec to sit at macs. Had a good happy talk about everything. the decisions we made to go with each other, our feelings. Met up with kangwei at marina for dinner. shortly after victoria eddie, andrew and clarice came along. Went to esplanade for benji's concert. First time i've ever been in esplanade concert hall. ahahh. the company made it nice. Benji was awesome on his violin. However, as i was commenting on his 15k violin to daniel, i kept saying guitar unconsciously without realising it before clarice corrected me. Damn embarrassing. OMG. hahah. After the concert we went to macs again to try the new seaweed shaker fries! Its nice :D k.

This is super image heavy that i took an hour to post all this up :/

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Thursday, July 2, 2009

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Written By Regina Brett, 90 years old, of The Plain Dealer, Cleveland , Ohio [via: Amazing Posts]

  1. Life isn’t fair, but it’s still good.

  2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.

  3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

  4. Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch!

  5. Pay off your credit cards every month.

  6. You don’t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

  7. Cry with someone. It’s more healing than crying alone.

  8. It’s OK to get angry with God. He can take it.

  9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.

  10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.

  11. Make peace with your past so it won’t screw up the present.

  12. It’s OK to let your children see you cry.

  13. Don’t compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

  14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn’t be in it.

  15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don’t worry; God never blinks.

  16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.

  17. Get rid of anything that isn’t useful, beautiful or joyful.

  18. Whatever doesn’t kill you really does make you stronger.

  19. It’s never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.

  20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don’t take no for an answer.

  21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don’t save it for a special occasion. Today is special..

  22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.

  23. Be eccentric now. Don’t wait for old age to wear purple.

  24. The most important sex organ is the brain.

  25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.

  26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words ‘In five years, will this matter?’

  27. Always choose life.

  28. Forgive everyone everything.

  29. What other people think of you is none of your business.

  30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.

  31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

  32. Don’t take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

  33. Believe in miracles.

  34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn’t do.

  35. Don’t audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.

  36. Growing old beats the alternative — dying young.

  37. Your children get only one childhood.

  38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.

  39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.

  40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else’s,we’d grab ours back.

  41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

  42. The best is yet to come.

  43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

  44. Yield.

  45. Life isn’t tied with a bow, but it’s still a gift


Friday, June 19, 2009

Mood: Reflective. Song: Casting crowns-Who am i.

Surrounded by the silence of the night.

I like moments like these. Moments when everyone else is sleeping and you can hear the stillness of everything. It feels like my moment, my time, my alone time. The period of silence, the soft sounds of my music, the gentle snoring of my sister reminds me that another day has passed, a new one is coming, an uncertain, unpredictable and new day.

My alone time got me watching ympact videos. Some i laughed at, some left me pondering and the one that left the most impression?

RAW camp photoslideshow.

RAW stands for Redemption At Work. Raw also meant being stripped clean, wiped away of all inhibitions, leaving one raw and unprotected, leaving a person's soul almost perfect, almost as if one is finally worthy, and truly worthy to be called a child of God. I didnt attend the camp for who knows what truly terrible and lousy excuse. Regretted it but there's no point crying over split milk. The twist was, i only felt the regret today. After a year. I felt the regret to attend RAW camp. As i mentioned, i saw the RAW camp photoslideshow. And it struck me so hard that i could see the clarity of everyones' passion for God. I saw emotions in faces as they genuinely asked for forgiveness for their sins. As they asked for redemption. I felt what they were feeling. It didnt matter that i didnt attend camp. It didnt matter that i have absolutely no idea what the sermon was about, what bible study they had, what quiet time they did. But i felt it. God speaking to all of them. God telling them to be the salt and light of this earth. God telling them to go and make disciples of all nations. Disciples of him. God telling them to bless people, to let the poor be rich and the weak be strong. I saw all of that. From photos. Either the photographer is downright fantastic or this is some weird unknown phenomenon. But i know better, i know God was working his way through these group of people to outreach to others, to let us know he is our refuge, our shelter from come what may. And as i felt all these emotions, i realised that even though i have been in PMC all my life, i have never ever felt this connected to God until last year. It took me 19 years of my life to find God. He never gave up on me, but guided me patiently to the path i was supposed to take, despite detours and losing my way. He never gave up.

This year has truly been a good year for me so far. I've regained things that i lost. I forged friendships for life. And i found God, back in my life. And i know he has bless me, even though i am a worthless sinner, unworthy to be called a child of God. And so i pray, for his guidance through all my life, that i will forever love him as my father in heaven, as my friend, as my mentor and as my God. For because of him, i am blessed with the things he has done for me, amazed by the miracles he unravels, and overjoyed at the happiness he has given to me. For he is my father, my God. And always and forever shall be.

i am yours.

Monday, June 1, 2009

The week summarised in a post

Back to school after a really good weekend. Kinda depressing. I left my wallet at my sister's chalet. So i couldnt sign in for attendance taking cause i didnt have my student card. Boyf was alone in town and i couldnt accompany him because of the horrendous palm taking screwed up machine. We have to take our attendance through palm scanning 3 times a day to prove you're in school. LIKE OMFG. cant even skip if i wanted to. Nb

Saturday was spent at my sister's 21st birthday bash which estimated a total whopping cost of 1.6K for expenses and she receiving almost 2K in cash gifts and presents. Like a dont know how many hundreds plus kate spade bag,a Titus diamond encrusted watch and many more. I havent seen all the presents yet. Lucky shit. Im so jealous. But my sister's awesome too because she gave me 50 bucks for being the photographer for the night. Dragging me out from my meals to help her snap shots and literally taking every single person in the room that walked through the doors. Felt like a bloody wedding reception. However, my 50bucks quickly ran out because i am so heavily in debt with my family! HAHA. owe money for my dad's christmas and birthday present, my mothers day present which i paid half already and my grandmother's mother day present. ohmygod, how am i gonna save at the rate im going. Melbourne trip, Studio Shots and rainy day money. Gone case.

Enough of ranting, Baby boy's sick and i want him to get well soon.

Monday, May 25, 2009

monday all over again

its monday. its school. i dread school.

My fyp is making me all jittery cause of how backward i am, how clueless i am and how stupid i feel. Kinda sucks, knowing that i need help for almost everything. I really just wanna pass this and get my diploma and graduate. Then i'll go to uni and study a whole new thing. Kinda looking forward to next year actually. The time i get to graduate, the maybe melbourne trip with sam and van and the thought of embarking on something newer and more exciting for my career. My future still seems bleak. i have no ambition. i dont know what to do with my life. So im taking each step as i go on this journey and maybe, just maybe, at the end i'll find something fufilling and worthwhile to me. Currently, im just studying my options in university. But right now, i should actually strive to complete my FYP. its crucial.

My leg's itching damn badly again, like holy crap omfg kind of itchy. Wonder if its linked to not taking my antibiotics yesterday :/ So im scratching like mad and its red again and it feels like 3 days of medicine gone down to waste.

Stop scratching.

Saturday, May 23, 2009

Well. i have this insect bite which i thought was a mosquito bite, which i went to scratched and it became swollen and inflamed and infected and ass-whopping painful and kinda rendered me crippled. So i went to see the doctor and she gave me 50 bucks worth of medicine and an MC.

it wasnt a mosquito bite. i got bitten on a bus. I hate the creature that bit me. Stupid thing wasted 50 bucks.

Friday, May 15, 2009

We're barely there.

The day's almost over and all i've heard from you is a morning text. I miss you badly and i dont know what you're doing. Busy probably. Almost hate the fact that we're so distant from each other. What i'd give to see you now. But i bet you wont like what you see. Exhaustion and tiredness written all over my face. It scares me to say how much i need you. It scares me a lot. Im struggling so much internally. I need strength. Where do i find strength?

This day's almost over. Maybe tomorrow will be better

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

so this is what forgotten feels like
I spent the entire day doing nothing. I feel damn pissed at myself for not being able to concentrate on my project. My assignments are overdue. and im still facebooking. Damn it. When will i get the motivation to continue on this educational journey of mine. I cant stand it. I need to get some work done.

Monday, May 4, 2009

daniel wants me to think that cramps are good. Damn, he's cute :D

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Words of Affirmation.

Sometimes, people surprise you and they turn up happening to be the best damn surprise ever. Sometimes, your stuffed animal is your best friend. Sometimes, your bed is the nicest place on earth. Sometimes, people care. Sometimes, pain is absolutely beautiful. Sometimes, a movie makes you cry. Sometimes, love is all around you. Sometimes, the clouds in the sky are moving so slowly that you think time is standing still. Sometimes, things change. Sometimes, you achieve things that never seemed possible. Sometimes, something people says is exactly what you needed to hear. Sometimes, colors seemed brighter and more beautiful than it ever was.

Sometimes, i wish i could spend eternity with you. Sometimes, just sometime, maybe someday, the world would just be me and you.

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Lovers dont finally meet somewhere, They're in each other all along

Love is the scar on your knees, the leftover food in the refrigerator, the song the birds sings, the pain you inflict, the sweet nothingness which flutters from your lover's mouth, a half complete cigarette, the rainbow sprinkles on your cupcake. the sound of wind escaping through a small gap in your window, the dampness in your hair, the kisses you blow, the clothes you wear, the tingly feeling you get when you are touched at certain parts of your body, the tangles in your lover's hair, sleepless nights, backing out from consuming too much alcohol, being desired by multiple parties, watching the people screw up around you, making mistakes, making love, screaming out of your window in the middle of the night, sticking your head out of a moving car, traveling the distance that seems never unending, kissing someone you cant get enough of ...

No. Love is,
you, I and a careless mixture of everything else we worry about.

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

I've got so much work to do, to complete by this week. But i dont know where to start, and how to start and im so confused and lost about my school work.  Gotta go home and start on my use case modelling, RDD and program login page. No more facebook please.

So much to do, so little time.

Monday, April 27, 2009

Delicious ambiguity

Some stories dont have a clear beginning, middle or end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best out of it, without knowing whats gonna happen next.

it feels so much better to have my head cleared and my heart at peace. Without you, i would be nothing.

" Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight. Do not be wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord and shun evil "

Proverbs 3: 5- 7

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Faith and Mercy

i thank Christ Jesus our Lord, who has given me strength that he considered me faithful, appointing me to his service. Even though i was once a blasphemer and a persecutor and a violent man. I was shown mercy because i acted in ignorance and unbelief. The grace of our Lord was poured out on me abundantly , along with the faith and love that are in Christ Jesus.

Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance : Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners - of whom I am the worst. But for that very reason I was shown mercy so that in me, the worst of sinners, Christ Jesus might display his unlimited patience as an example for those who would believe on him and receive eternal life.

1:Timothy 1: 12-16

Today, I confessed i was a sinner. Today, I committed my life to God. Today, I wanted the holy spirit to come into me. Today, I wanted to be worthy of being called a child of God. Today, God showed me mercy.

Today, I was saved
i dont know what to say. my mind's in a whirl now. every now and then, i 've made mistakes. but this has got to be the biggest one yet. im just hoping and praying that stuff wont happen.

its been a long time since i've felt screwed up. this is one of those big moments.

Friday, April 17, 2009

let God be the judge of me

its been so long since i last updated. everyday seems so busy now. it seems like i have an endless load of things to do and so little time. im backsliding in dance, i need more time with daniel, i got to start on my fyp and i want to start doing things that i've never got around to doing and i want to make more new friends and catch up with the old ones and i want to spend more time with my family.

this holiday has drifted me apart from friends and brought me to new ones. im thankful for everything thats been working well in my life. all the little hiccups that were resolved and all the fun i had. i realised that i've really stopped knowing whats happening in my friends' lives because i've been so caught up in my own and the new friends. thinking back, i do feel guilty. im not the melissa i once was. strangely the things that used to interest me back then and in which i thought was cool no longer is to me. i went back to the kind of lifestyle i once lived for when i went for b's 19th chalet. and all they talk about was drinking and clubbing and smoking. that used to have such an influence on me. now, its just nothing. 2 days ago , i realised clubbing wasnt worth me risking so much to get into trouble, with my parents, with my boyfriend and with myself. i know im a lousy alcoholic and i know i will regret the things i do if i get drunk. hell, i wont even know what i'll do. im starting to think through my life. its like i've matured in mentality wise. i know how to think for myself now i know how to resist temptation and though i may suck at it, at least im giving it a try. i dont know. the new year for some has been bad and for others good, to me i guessed mine was definitely a pleasant surprise and a good thing. i've changed, for better or for worse. let God be the judge of that.

 

so induction program has been fun. i hope moggo2 enjoyed themselves though i kinda doubt so :/

lets hope it gets better tmr

Saturday, April 4, 2009

back from camps and tired stiff like nobody's business.

FOC Egypt Crew is Cool! and 3DO Devils!

Thursday, March 19, 2009

mundane nothings

church today. met up with some of the people. slacked and watched daniel get trashed in ping pong by his father. it was exciting funny(: HAHAHAH.

im bored and tired. waiting for him to end his game :/

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

im turning into a housewifeeee

turns out i've been ironing clothes a tad too often. i scalded myself with the steam iron at least twice before i decided to stop. joel told me it was a good decision. i might burn the clothes.

i think so too.

Monday, March 16, 2009

a month old entry

its been ages and ages since i last posted something.  so busy spending time with baby and hanging out with church people or team 7 that everytime i got home, im so lazy to think of what to write about. but my holidays have been fun definitely. love having the extra free time on hand to always meet baby and hang out with friends. ssl ( sneaky _ love) xD only he knows what im talking about

on the other hand, been busy with BYOF since the date is drawing nearer. its omfg this saturday! all the preparations and after church meetings wont go wasted as the commitee eagerly plans for this event. oh man. oh man. GOOD WEATHER PLEASEEEEEEE. dont be a killjoy and spoil the fun. For the committee members, every effort that all of us put in is appreciated. without our group, i doubt everything would be completed so quickly and efficiently. damn, we're good((:

skipped SU's trial camp and ict's trial camp. but im still gonna be a crew at foc and corrine called me up to still be a gl for ict. so yay! camp's for the entire of next week. gonna miss baby but i'll definitely make time for him. top priority you know x) and i heard that a number of the seniors will be coming back for foc so cant wait to catch up with all of them. afterall, the best times in my poly life was spent with all of them. FOC was really the best experience i had in np. from being a freshman to a GL, the memories there are unmeasurable and oh so unforgettable. And as chub puts it, its all about the people that makes up SU. Lancelot, green beans ( magnum beans) kappa tau , destige family. the self high ones, the pigs, the chubbs, the bimbos. Friendships gained, friendships lost. i've learned as i go along and there are times when i've strayed but the people who helped guide me back and the people who were constantly there for me in my times of need. the guys who always send me home no matter how late it was, wait outside my class for me, carry my laptops, piggyback me when im tired, pamper me and put up with me and the girls with heart to heartfelt talks, encouraging me and motivating me, scolding me when im wrong and hugging me when im sad. it isnt something that i would forget. to all the people who made a difference in my life. even to the ones im no longer talking to or are friends with. thank you.

and to all the fun i had during this meetings or events

justis dance barbeque/chalet

thrift shopping with sam

touch rugby with chub and kc

kelvin's POP

countless meetings with baby!

sleepover at sam's

fusion

BYOF meetings and video taking sessions

escape with sam, abigail and sheryl

and others which i've clearly forgotten about.

 

found some random young time pictures when i went peeping into my memory box

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STEF AND ME!

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i look like a boy!

I LOOK LIKE A BOY

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BRANDON! he used to be so cute then. x)

Thursday, February 19, 2009

i know of 4 people who are feeling like shit now.
im insecure. i need to study. i want to dance. i want to be skinny.this sucks.

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Friday the 13th

i am happy because this day has been nothing short of incredible. Void decks with you is love <3

 

Two mountain is pretending to kick up a fuss with me because i complained that i have to study on valentine's day and she has to work. All just because im tired and feeling random. So we're both going  MELISSA :  GO STUDY
MELISSA : OMFG
MELISSA : STUDY ON V DAY
MELISSA : DAMN SHITTY
Yihui : it's ok what
MELISSA :  hahha
MELISSA : yeah
MELISSA : im just making a fuss cause im tired
Yihui : i fuss with u
Yihui : OMFG
Yihui : STUDY ON V DAY
Yihui : OMFG
Yihui : WHAT?
MELISSA : YA LA
MELISSA : SO WTH RIGHT
MELISSA : OH MAN
MELISSA : I CAN GO KILL MYSELF ALREADY LA
Yihui : I
Yihui : I'LL JOIN IN

HAHAHAHAHHA!

Secret valentine's on repeat mode. Im getting addicted

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

failure surprises

slept at 430, woke up at 5, cabbed to clementi mrt at 6, reached tampines at 7, called baby at 708. disappointed :/

wanted to surprise baby by going down to see him. instead, his dad was driving him to school. so we couldnt meet. and i went back home. jurong to tampines. tampines to jurong. omfg.

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its the rare moments in time that i ever wake up so bloody early. im sad that we didnt get to meet. but i know we'll have lots more time together.

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

introducing

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robot comics

my latest addiction. i've been spamming my friends with these snippets. damn funny and damn cute x)

nicky failed his tp because of a stupid banglah. wth. i hope the banglah rots in hell. now i wont get my free ride to school anymore :X

Sunday, February 8, 2009

im not moving but would you want me to?

* for my own comfort. i'll probably use fuck way too many times in this post.

this is one of those days where i feel like im happy inside and still have that stupid feeling about not lasting :/ it feels like a screwed up version of me.  because i dont trust myself in keeping his heart, to make him happy. and i fucking well know i cant compete with the others.

i cant play a guitar nor belt out a love song to him like kelyn does. and im not crazy enough to always make him laugh like delane does. and for the rest. i really dont know:/ the only thing im good at is just trying to love him. but maybe thats not fucking good enough. i get people telling me that im so lucky cause he's popular and smart and charismatic. Hell i know that. why do you think im feeling so bloody insecure right now?  its fucked up not because i dont trust him, but rather i dont see myself capable enough or good enough to take that position as his girlfriend.

i always say ' emo is for losers '

im a fucking loser right now.
im just glad that this week has passed. but not so thrilled at the aspect of another one starting really soon. Exams are coming in less than 2 weeks time. On a happier note, so is holidays.  but i need to study asap. Like mug till my brains hurt from cramming so much information in and get moments where its much more comforting to go die.  Yeah. Happy moments :/

Lets see how things goes

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

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' you realise that the sun doesnt go down, its just an illusion cause by the world spinning round '

icanread.

 

im bored in school. school's just presentations, projects, exam revisions and facebook. Pm's exam is tomorrow and i havent studied a single thing yet. Surprisingly, im still blogging here rather than having panic attacks about the stupid exam. And walking home in the rain has roused a good bout of sneezes and a whole chunk of tissues being stuffed at my face. Not a good sign. I just want the exams to come soon. With fusion and all, i dont really want to waste my time studying. Sucks seriously.

lets just get it over and done with.

Sunday, February 1, 2009

love

 

i cant explain nor put down into words how i feel about us. but amazing and awesome pretty much sums it all up.

 

happy first(:

Sunday, January 25, 2009

dance.

Dance is the only way i get to release tension from the hectic week. All the pent up emotions and anger towards a certain person really demoralise myself and i realised it was stupid of me to let a single person get the best of me and bring me down. Maybe its the stress from this week and im starting to get sensitive. Screw it. She's not worth my time.

Met two mountain before dance class on friday. Shopped.Ate.Danced.Home.

It takes two hands to clap, and an entire dance team to perform a good show. Everyone's effort, time and commitment is greatly appreciated. No one dances alone. Like peiming says: "The next time you're mad, try dancing it out."

 

Dance, not to impress

but to express.

Friday, January 23, 2009

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We all tend to make mistakes.  And even if we're trying to make amends for it, we cant deny that we're still leaving a scar there. Cant erase it. Dont push your luck K, you wont get very far with that complacent attitude of yours.

 

 

And i feel bad, cause ultimately, being there in words is not the same as actually being there for you. If i could, i would:/ Cheer up cheer up.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Not feeling myself.

i am so drained out. Its the only few times that i complain about being tired and actually am. School's been mentally exhausting with assignment submissions and exams coming up.  And staying back till 9, 10 pm almost every night in school to do assignments does not really justify to me. My head hurts and the chatter around me is creeping in and killing me. I guess today im just in the 'i dont really want to open my mouth to talk to you' kind of mood. I need some peace and quiet and yet, im not getting any. Surprise, surprise.

i am tired.period.

 

We sometimes encounter people, even perfect strangers, who begin to interest us at first sight, somehow suddenly, all at once, before a word has been spoken.
— Fyodor Dostoevsky, Crime and Punishment

Daniel still intrigues me very very much.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Number of things completed for the day

1.do ecad assignment.

2.complete
planetshakers- beautiful saviour.

The song's been on repeat for the past few hours. I dont think i could ever get sick of it. The words have a really calming effect on me. When im exhausted and drained out from doing my assignments, i close my eyes and listen to it. And the world and all its troubles fade away, just like that. The lyrics are simple, but what really strucks me is how meaningful they sound. It just goes to show, the simple things in life really make the most impact. Like how the simplest thing you do or say could touch someone else's heart deeply in more ways than we can imagine. Go figure.

do something good for someone today. slip a note of encouragement or text a love msg. If you could brighten someone's day, why not? lets kill them with kindness(:

Monday, January 12, 2009

dc

You may not be his first, his last, or his only. He loved before he may love again. But if he loves you now, what else matters? He’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together, but if he can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto him and give him the most you can. He may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you can break - his heart. So don’t hurt him, don’t change him, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than he can give. Smile when he makes you happy, let him know when he makes you mad, and miss him when he's not there.

Bob Marley

 

I know that love is not that perfect thing that you see in the movies and read in books.  Love is something as real as pain and happiness and warmth. Love is broken and healing. Love is flawed and perfect. Love is evasive. Love comes in small moments that come together to write the most captivating story of all. Our story. Both mine and yours. And we both realised that love rarely arrives on time and thats what makes love so beautiful. I love you dear. I hope you can see that.

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Sunday service with lots of love

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taken from icanread.

to love. to hold. to cherish. to smile. to make that person feel special every single day of his life. to remember all the moments when he held your hands, or gave you a hug or kiss you goodbye. to pretend like the whole world revolves only around the 2 of you. and to say with the utmost sincerity, i love you.

im so glad i found you. sunday services with you are the best.

you're tugging at my heart strings but im not complaining

work was tiring today. and now i have a lot of things to do. My proposal that contains only 3 lines of nonsense and a "i love you d.c" still needs to be completed. Asap. Ecad assignment not started on and memory card pictures. there's a million and one things on my mind now:/

 

because every scene that has you in it keeps replaying at the back of my mind. And everytime, i close my eyes, its you i see. How could i not want you anymore than i already do(:

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

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my grandmother(:

 

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Vincent Pannizzo

preacher

1 homeless person, 1 calling,

Every night, out on the streets of Oakland. A single homeless man finds himself a corner, and as a crowd of 50 odd people starts to gather around him, he begins to preach the gospel. And the crowd filled with other homeless people, drug dealers and passerbys all stop to listen to his shockingly lucid and downright inspirational sermons. God called him to his purpose several years ago and Vincent Pannizzo abandoned his career and made the conscious decison to live on the streets to preach the gospel. Besides preaching, he also hands out food and whatever money he picks up from doing odd jobs in the day. And every night, he preaches to the people of Oakland, amidst all the sounds of the night before heading back to the homeless shelter and waking up in the morning to do it all over again.

This man, who gave his all in serving God, did whatever he was told and sacrificed all that he needed to. Just for the sake of the gospel. It really shows how willing people are to give their lives to God. To trust in him and to serve him faithfully. And though he may not be the rich and famous but homeless and poor, i bet his life is filled with much more enjoyment and satisfaction and all the things that money cant buy. Which is probably the best feeling in the world.

This just makes me wonder, when's it gonna be my turn?

If everything in life came with a warning label

that would pretty much suck because the warning label would probably dampen my mood on doing stupid stuff.

there's no school today, supposedly :/ i just didnt go for project meeting either due to miscommunications. wth, mel you suck.  And so i  spend the whole day at home, slacking. Felt like the good old holidays again(:

 

3 whole lines of nonsense and a " i love you d.c" in bold. thats all i've done for my BYOF proposal . TSK!(:

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

monday blues

Apparently, the lecturers find it mildly amusing to make me go to class for a 25mins interview followed by a 3 hours break and another 30mins of assignment briefing. Interesting. If school didnt start at such an early time, i might not resent it so much :X

Secrets uncovered. Shocking, random but true. Had to run out of class three times to call someone to rant about it.

Vivo with sam liew. Unexpected surprise. Made my entire day(: And there i was being an idiot. Because all i could do was look. and smile. Replayed certain scenes in the back of my head. I bet im gonna dream about the scene like a million times every day. Thinking of it makes me act like an idiot again. Goofy smiles and a dreamy look. Hadn't felt this way ever.

 

Now look at what you've done to me. But baby, i aint complaining(:

Sunday, January 4, 2009

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webcamming and talking on the phone with sam liew is love. Floating spirit and washington. Both of us a couple of 14 year olds(: I need to talk to her soon. something weird just happened :/

Planning a band one fellowship event really isnt easy. We had a meeting yesterday for approx 3 hours. i died in there. especially after he left. Missed out on a chance to talked to him. Was quite upset about it. And when the committee started having problems and different opinions, things became a lot worse. Pray that we will all work out our differences and come together as a LG to organise the event. We really need to bond.

I love washington. Yes i do

Saturday, January 3, 2009

romans 8:28

and i saw you standing there, drop dead gorgeous and smiling. present for the new year.

happy 2009. i hoped everyone got lucky like i did(:

Friday, January 2, 2009