Thursday, February 19, 2009

i know of 4 people who are feeling like shit now.
im insecure. i need to study. i want to dance. i want to be skinny.this sucks.

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Friday the 13th

i am happy because this day has been nothing short of incredible. Void decks with you is love <3

 

Two mountain is pretending to kick up a fuss with me because i complained that i have to study on valentine's day and she has to work. All just because im tired and feeling random. So we're both going  MELISSA :  GO STUDY
MELISSA : OMFG
MELISSA : STUDY ON V DAY
MELISSA : DAMN SHITTY
Yihui : it's ok what
MELISSA :  hahha
MELISSA : yeah
MELISSA : im just making a fuss cause im tired
Yihui : i fuss with u
Yihui : OMFG
Yihui : STUDY ON V DAY
Yihui : OMFG
Yihui : WHAT?
MELISSA : YA LA
MELISSA : SO WTH RIGHT
MELISSA : OH MAN
MELISSA : I CAN GO KILL MYSELF ALREADY LA
Yihui : I
Yihui : I'LL JOIN IN

HAHAHAHAHHA!

Secret valentine's on repeat mode. Im getting addicted

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

failure surprises

slept at 430, woke up at 5, cabbed to clementi mrt at 6, reached tampines at 7, called baby at 708. disappointed :/

wanted to surprise baby by going down to see him. instead, his dad was driving him to school. so we couldnt meet. and i went back home. jurong to tampines. tampines to jurong. omfg.

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its the rare moments in time that i ever wake up so bloody early. im sad that we didnt get to meet. but i know we'll have lots more time together.

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

introducing

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robot comics

my latest addiction. i've been spamming my friends with these snippets. damn funny and damn cute x)

nicky failed his tp because of a stupid banglah. wth. i hope the banglah rots in hell. now i wont get my free ride to school anymore :X

Sunday, February 8, 2009

im not moving but would you want me to?

* for my own comfort. i'll probably use fuck way too many times in this post.

this is one of those days where i feel like im happy inside and still have that stupid feeling about not lasting :/ it feels like a screwed up version of me.  because i dont trust myself in keeping his heart, to make him happy. and i fucking well know i cant compete with the others.

i cant play a guitar nor belt out a love song to him like kelyn does. and im not crazy enough to always make him laugh like delane does. and for the rest. i really dont know:/ the only thing im good at is just trying to love him. but maybe thats not fucking good enough. i get people telling me that im so lucky cause he's popular and smart and charismatic. Hell i know that. why do you think im feeling so bloody insecure right now?  its fucked up not because i dont trust him, but rather i dont see myself capable enough or good enough to take that position as his girlfriend.

i always say ' emo is for losers '

im a fucking loser right now.
im just glad that this week has passed. but not so thrilled at the aspect of another one starting really soon. Exams are coming in less than 2 weeks time. On a happier note, so is holidays.  but i need to study asap. Like mug till my brains hurt from cramming so much information in and get moments where its much more comforting to go die.  Yeah. Happy moments :/

Lets see how things goes

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

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' you realise that the sun doesnt go down, its just an illusion cause by the world spinning round '

icanread.

 

im bored in school. school's just presentations, projects, exam revisions and facebook. Pm's exam is tomorrow and i havent studied a single thing yet. Surprisingly, im still blogging here rather than having panic attacks about the stupid exam. And walking home in the rain has roused a good bout of sneezes and a whole chunk of tissues being stuffed at my face. Not a good sign. I just want the exams to come soon. With fusion and all, i dont really want to waste my time studying. Sucks seriously.

lets just get it over and done with.

Sunday, February 1, 2009

love

 

i cant explain nor put down into words how i feel about us. but amazing and awesome pretty much sums it all up.

 

happy first(: